inception

hi there.

is anyone even there? i like this forum, because it secures me to think that no one's even listening. but, maybe you are. i'm here tonight, glancing upon a mirror, almost like snowwhites'. and i think to myself, what a wonderful....night. a celebration of two lovers. friends. 2 of MY friends, who i love dearly, and today, when i stood before them...saw almost 10 years of hilarious and fantastic memories of fun, love, triumph, and sorrow. lots of time between 2 people (and all their loved ones. whom they care so much about)...and can't help but think what this could mean for me.

i know that i long for love and emotion, heart, soul and devotion. i guess i'm in a place where i can admit my needs. where is he? when i think of love, i think of him..his face, his back, his hurt and lack of knowing, maybe just what to do...maybe not know exactly how to balance his love of himself and his nature..and of my essential self. as well. i know he's there.

what a great night. it got weird. for a little bit..with unwanted strangers and unexpected interuptedness...i sigh. i'm not sure where to go from here. thank god there's tomorrow. i felt pretty tonight. that's a plus...random i know...but it's okay. i'm glad.

Back at it. why not?

It's been a long while, since I've written in my blog. Here we are again, and now I feel no obligation, but rather, inspiration...to write here, once again..here we are again.

Some words I thought of while biking the other day:

i think i saw a god today, in a long-white bearded man.

i think i saw a god today, in the spirit of love and can.

i think i saw a god today, in a pair of well-groomed dogs.

i think i saw the power today, nd' if not one, i'll choose them all.

i am..... i am.... i am here, i am now, i am me.